Perception and memory.

I don’t remember factual information. I won’t remember that pointless job you wanted me to do, or the abbreviation for a process that takes longer to decode than if you just described it to me in the first place. I won’t remember your name.

I will remember how something makes me feel, even if I can’t describe the feeling. I will remember the change in atmosphere, the mutation in expression . I will remember the most hidden of reactions. I will remember the intensity of the information exchanged by these features.

I won’t remember the name of that place or the roads to get there. I don’t know where it is in relation to that other well known place.

I will remember the way the ground felt. The smell of the trees. The winding of the road. The feel of the air on my face as I passed through. How something or someone made me feel or change.

I don’t know the dates of that important battle. Your birthday.

I remember the experiences. I remember the impact. The influence of that date or that moment in time.

I have no patience for your personal frustrations, especially if they are within your control.

I feel the ground breathe. I feel the mountains groan. I feel the earth churn as it spins.

I won’t remember the time of day. The time of that meeting. I will forget how long simple tasks take.

Time passes like an explosion. It is infinite and continuous and fluid. 10 minutes of my twenties is nothing like 10 minutes of my teens. And 10 minutes of now passes by in apparent seconds.

For years I’ve been forcing myself to try and remember the things other people value. I don’t care anymore. I’m not incapable, others are just inherently narrow minded. There’s much more to the world than the arbitrary facts of a society that can’t even explain it’s own intentions or motivations.

I can remember some things, I’ve learned how to do that. Words are always interesting and I word associate, so if I start to associate a word or name with anything I’ve previously mentioned, I will come to remember it. If I must. But know this; if I do remember your name, or the name of something, it’s because I’ve decided it’s important.

For everything else; it’s not that I can’t remember, you’re just not asking me properly.