Lockdown took my hobby… But not my sanity!

Now let me begin by saying I have not had it bad. I am in a much better position than most. Doesn’t mean I don’t feel a sense of loss.

Socialising was my hobby. Going out was my hobby. Its not that I didn’t enjoy other things, it’s that my FOCUS was socialising. I didn’t care where I was, as long as I was around people. People took my focus.

I enjoy playing music, reading books and going outside. But I don’t read up on these things. I lazily keep up with famous people that I know I like, fashion from shops I know suit my shape, and which supermarket brand of biscuit has the best butter ratio.

But the thing in invested in is socialising. I don’t think I’m alone.

I don’t think I need other people to have fun. I very much enjoy passing time in my own company. I read books in pretty places and comfy places. I write on this blog in a similar fashion. I walk outside with my headphones on and off. I don’t NEED other people to do things with me. But it’s all just passing time between seeing people.

I don’t even need to see people in an active sense. I ‘passenger’ easily whenever someone else takes the driving seat. I am a great wing woman for guys who like to girl watch without seeming threatening whilst I sit with my book or my beer (sometimes both) pretending to be their other half.

I don’t ever feel like a third wheel in company of couples, usually becoming at one with the furniture and feeling greatful I have two personalities to enjoy for the price of one.

I just like being sociable.

COVID19 has taken that away from me. And in itself, forced me to realise that I do have hobbies and interests, I just need to stop seeing me time as peppered between my social life and integrate it as part of my actual life. Plan for me time the way I would a party.

I’m getting there.