Being an intelligent functioning drug user has its issues when you want to deal with the health care system.
I think there’s something wrong with my stomach. I think this because of some non drug related issues such as difficulty eating. But these issues could be anything and it could take ages to see what’s actually wrong. I also think this largely because when I bomb powders, I’m nauseous. Cold sweat, inability to speak kinda nauseous. Standing/laying still shaking kinda nauseous where you’re afraid you’re gonna pass out and vomit and die from choking.
I know what most people will say; bad batch, never know what’s in drugs blah blah blah. Then docs would go through the rigamole of twenty cheap easy treatments for minor symptoms and the likelihood I’ll get more and more ill. The only way I could get anyone to take me seriously would be to remove the drugs as a variable. The only way I can do that is to admit I make it myself. Who knows what can of legal and life changing worms that will unleash.
I’m still too much of a low level /personal user to enter into the game of black hospitals. I’m very much straddling the line between taking part in normal society and the world that does the complete opposite. One of these days I may have to choose which life to focus on. Not sure how much longer I can live like this.
FaerieFalls 