Changes

SO much has changed. SO much that I can’t even comprehend how much in such a short space of time.

I couldn’t continue the two lives. I couldn’t do it. Back in April, I spent a week in Scotland imagining living there. I hoped it would help me decide either which life to choose. It didn’t. I spent a week at my mum’s where I came to the conclusion that the fact I was even thinking about it so hard meant I clearly didn’t WANT to be with BJ. So I left.

My mind has experienced a wealth of emotions. Mostly positive or anxiety inducing. None of them bordering on depression though.

I’ve lost weight.

I’ve found I can sleep wherever and as long as I’m not being trapped, I’m happy.