I’m losing myself. And not in a good way.
The phenergen that docs given me doesn’t really help with sleep. Unless I tip it back with some pseudoephedrine or dihyrdracodeine. But I get the feeling that’s not really what I’m supposed to be doing to get to sleep. So I went back to amitriptyline. At the moment sleep is difficult for a variety of reasons. So I’m taking it every day. Hello cloud Cuckoo land.
Nothing seems real. more to the point, I don’t want it to seem real, I want to go away. Float away. Can I take a handful of pills and lose myself forever?
FaerieFalls 