One girl's battle with life
I've never thought much about how I regulated before. I'm sure many people can relate. Then I was forced to grow up. My birthday started to include a 3 as the first digit and I was still hiding in a bath tub with a joint and a pint. It was time I started to get… Continue reading Self-regulation
My parents didn't teach me to think. They taught me to follow rules. They wanted the best for me. They knew that badness existed in the world and tried to find ways to quantify it and box it up so help me navigate. Unfortunately many of these ways involved me just doing as I'm told.… Continue reading Because trust is a big thing
Written with my tongue firmly in my cheek... By an autistic human who wouldn't accept 'because love is like that sometimes' as an answer to my grief over losing my ex. A guy who, on the whole, was a pretty troubled man. His struggles made ever harder by his inability to communicate them and a… Continue reading Why narcissists are necessary
The weather is turning. There's condensation on the tops of cars in the evening. My mind is changing, too. I no longer feel a pang of jealously imaging people at creamfields. I've had to take some time out of life. I needed it. Having my social life taken away in August of 2020 was a… Continue reading Lying my way from You.
I didn't paint a picture. I didn't mask at all. The pretty drugs and flashing lights were there to watch me fall. I fell just like a princess. With girly twirls and hair. I'd pick up work and smile and flirt and never really care. My act was like a mirror. But a mirror, we… Continue reading Picture
Something I like to do in my spare time is sit and look at nature. I used to hate it. The outside. Because I was scared. And I have heightened sense of number touch. The feel of outside has hd the potential to both soothe but also disregulate me. As a child I was forced… Continue reading Nature
I read this piece online suggesting a 4 say working week was the way forward and wanted to share my thoughts... I think it also needs to address cognitive load, which differs from person to person. And the reimbursement focus for the work being achieved. I.e the way salaries are paid. Yes we would all… Continue reading The 4 day working week.
I am a strong woman. In spite of the turmoil I have been through and am currently going under, I am still here. I keep going because life goes on. I never considered stopping since that one time with a bottle of gin when the moon shone down onto my groovy chick bedspread, age appropriate.… Continue reading Strength
I have had issues with control my entire life. I know now that this is a lot more related to my childhood than me. One parent who acted like a child and another who avoided as much as he could. One parent who would try to micro manage my every move and one parent who… Continue reading Control
I got a compliment I wasn't expecting last night. Not one I didn't think of myself. Definitely a compliment I had hoped to receive one day. But it was unexpected last night. My partner told me that he always had a negative view of women before he met me. Said he thought women were all… Continue reading You don’t know.
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