One girl's battle with life
I ran away from home a long time ago. Home wasnt safe. Change that. Home hadn't kept me safe. I'd been abused by a person near to my family. My family hadn't kept me safe. On top of that, my mum was a ball of emotional crazy (still is) and my dad avoided having to… Continue reading Trust
At night I turn into a monster. I don't think this is the first time this has happened. I don't think it happens all the time. I can't put my finger on why. It's like the night draws in and my brain switches to a bad mood instantly. I begin to get irritated by everyone.… Continue reading Monster
How's your weight? Struggling with the extra pounds? Always hungry? Try cocaine, MCAT, meth or a newly formed chemical. Before you know you'll be up all weekend and you won't be able to eat for days. And if the mad with it life style isn't for you, a wee sniff a day keeps the cake… Continue reading The health benefits
So I'm getting ready to go home from Scotland. I have slept very little this past 48 hours and I feel fine. No actually. I feel fine. Fine in the head. Two possible reasons for this: 1) No drugs were involved 2) I had a clear head when I arrived. Hmm. Tricky one. I want… Continue reading It’s all in your head
I don't know how to relax. It's easy during the week or the term. There simply isn't time. Something needs doing and I'm so TIRED all the time that the days roll together. Then it's the weekend and inevitably there will be some type of seeing people plan as well as catching up on house… Continue reading Relax
I used to hate mess. I used to hate being dirty. I used to have OCD about how things were done, where things were kept, what things I did. Washing had to be hung in certain places and in a certain way. I wouldn't be able to relax unless I had calm around me. Don't… Continue reading Things I’ve learned…
I'm happier than I've been in a long time. Everyone I know thinks I've been coming off my anti depressants. Everyone thinks this is making me better. Really I'm just getting over the drugs. The addiction or the withdrawal or a combination of the two. Its been 8 weeks of torture. The last hit was… Continue reading Recovery
Here is my life at this point in time (I have to say that, my lifestyle/mood changes more times than I care to remember): I wake around 5. I eat breakfast. I go to work and usually work from 7:10 until 5 with 10 minutes to myself at lunch. I come home eat dinner watching… Continue reading Apathy
It's a four letter word. I'm redefining the word. I teach kids. Yet I have an unhealthy attraction to things that are frowned upon and I have been known to walk about with a gram of meth in the back of my phone and smoke thc on my way home. And I keep forgetting people's… Continue reading Risk
I have this theory. Suicide is a natural process of evolution. Humans are a complicated balance of chemicals and they don't always work properly or engage properly with the world around them. Suicide is natures way of filtering out those who aren't compatible with life. Not always are people worth saving.
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