One girl's battle with life
Yesterday my friends uncle knocked on the door of where I was out of the blue. He asked me how I was, remembered my job and other information about me. I haven't seen this man in over 2 years and I only saw him a handful of times when he gave me a lift home.… Continue reading Like.
I never thought I'd be this employee. The person whose tardiness is becoming a pattern. The person who's time sheets are always late. The person who is bluntly cynical. But I also never expected to be homeless, living out of a tent. I never expected to be pitched pillar to post to wherever was most… Continue reading Privilege
I'm sitting doing nothing for a bit. The soft rain tickles my hands as the wind blows it my way. The sun beams through the rain clouds when it can, and warms my face. It's not cold. I'm wearing my mum's knitted cardigan. The dog is keeping me company. He won't leave my side. The… Continue reading Dandelion
Why did my mum have to die? Why, indeed. Why did she try so hard to steer me towards the right path.. when she didn't even know what the right path was? Why did she have to die? I spent so much time away from her. I blamed her for everything. I thought I had… Continue reading Because.
Don't underestimate the level of delusion people are under. People are shit. Even you. Even me. And there are a million ways to delude yourself. People will spend £500 on a pair of trainers whilst someone else pays for the roof over their head. People will spend £30 on a takeout and let fresh ingredients… Continue reading Delusion
Here's the thing about non verbal communication. I get that some people have ways of communicating without words. I actively look for them and try to read them. The issue I have is when people use non verbal deliberately to make you respond a certain way. Then what do you call it? Short responses when… Continue reading Non verbal communication
I love the little wonders in life. I find lots of pleasure in my world around me. In the past two weeks, a few things of wonder have appeared before me. The first was a shooting star. It a was night without plans and I didn't want to sit in and watch a film. It… Continue reading Freedom
My parents didn't teach me to think. They taught me to follow rules. They wanted the best for me. They knew that badness existed in the world and tried to find ways to quantify it and box it up so help me navigate. Unfortunately many of these ways involved me just doing as I'm told.… Continue reading Because trust is a big thing
The weather is turning. There's condensation on the tops of cars in the evening. My mind is changing, too. I no longer feel a pang of jealously imaging people at creamfields. I've had to take some time out of life. I needed it. Having my social life taken away in August of 2020 was a… Continue reading Lying my way from You.
You may have noticed my foray into poetry. I love poems. As a young person I enjoyed my poems performed through the choice of artists on my iPod. As an adult, I've mostly not stopped to think let alone explore poetry. Now I've slowed down a bit, it's something that is all coming back to… Continue reading Learning happens at any age.
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