Author: iseestarsx
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Musings from a primary school teacher.
Who also happens to be a functioning addict, manic depressive oddball with a whimsical grasp on reality.
Will that do as an introduction?
Because.
Why did my mum have to die? Why, indeed. Why did she try so hard to steer me towards the right path.. when she didn't even know what the right path was? Why did she have to die? I spent so much time away from her. I blamed her for everything. I thought I had… Continue reading Because.
Delusion
Don't underestimate the level of delusion people are under. People are shit. Even you. Even me. And there are a million ways to delude yourself. People will spend £500 on a pair of trainers whilst someone else pays for the roof over their head. People will spend £30 on a takeout and let fresh ingredients… Continue reading Delusion
Non verbal communication
Here's the thing about non verbal communication. I get that some people have ways of communicating without words. I actively look for them and try to read them. The issue I have is when people use non verbal deliberately to make you respond a certain way. Then what do you call it? Short responses when… Continue reading Non verbal communication
Freedom
I love the little wonders in life. I find lots of pleasure in my world around me. In the past two weeks, a few things of wonder have appeared before me. The first was a shooting star. It a was night without plans and I didn't want to sit in and watch a film. It… Continue reading Freedom
Because trust is a big thing
My parents didn't teach me to think. They taught me to follow rules. They wanted the best for me. They knew that badness existed in the world and tried to find ways to quantify it and box it up so help me navigate. Unfortunately many of these ways involved me just doing as I'm told.… Continue reading Because trust is a big thing
Why narcissists are necessary
Written with my tongue firmly in my cheek... By an autistic human who wouldn't accept 'because love is like that sometimes' as an answer to my grief over losing my ex. A guy who, on the whole, was a pretty troubled man. His struggles made ever harder by his inability to communicate them and a… Continue reading Why narcissists are necessary
Lying my way from You.
The weather is turning. There's condensation on the tops of cars in the evening. My mind is changing, too. I no longer feel a pang of jealously imaging people at creamfields. I've had to take some time out of life. I needed it. Having my social life taken away in August of 2020 was a… Continue reading Lying my way from You.
Learning happens at any age.
You may have noticed my foray into poetry. I love poems. As a young person I enjoyed my poems performed through the choice of artists on my iPod. As an adult, I've mostly not stopped to think let alone explore poetry. Now I've slowed down a bit, it's something that is all coming back to… Continue reading Learning happens at any age.
Picture
I didn't paint a picture. I didn't mask at all. The pretty drugs and flashing lights were there to watch me fall. I fell just like a princess. With girly twirls and hair. I'd pick up work and smile and flirt and never really care. My act was like a mirror. But a mirror, we… Continue reading Picture
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